Only the female half of humanity was seen to have the magical ability to bleed profusely and still rise phoenix-like each month...

Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Weird quote by Estelle Ramey.

This episode of That Time of the Month has come complete with wicked cramps, bloating, plummeting self-esteem, increased skin "issues," and overall irritability. Yayyyy womanhood. I have an aunt that calls it "the blessing" in direct contradiction to everyone else who calls it "the curse." I get what she means, but talk about feeling six shades of miserable! And reading into things that don't exist... And taking things personally that have nothing to do with me... Bah. I read a book once called The Red Tent and the part that sticks out in my mind the most is that the women all bonded during their periods (of course, they were all on it at the same time) and got to hang out in a neato red tent relaxing and eating exotic foods while waiting for the process to be over and done with. I don't really remember it exactly like that, but how fun if for the time that you're on your period you and your girlfriends could go to a spa or eat at fabulous restaurants (or have the fabulous restaurants come to you if you're too bloated to wear anything besides sweatpants) or really do anything you want to do that's fun and relaxing and allows you to feel the best you can! Let's figure out how to make that happen!

It is better to be beautiful than to be good, but it is better to be good than to be ugly

Thursday, May 15, 2008
Quote by Oscar Wilde.

As I type this, I have green goop on my face in hopes of extracting the dozens of little blackheads that occasionally plauge my existence. Yes, my alarm will go off in seven short hours, yes, I could use a lot more sleep than that tonight, and yes, I'm somewhat impatiently waiting during the 15 minutes before I can wash my face. However, it's either this or claw my face off by trying to pick each individual one out of my skin. Here's a question: after all the advice we read, horror stories we hear, and dozens of bottles in our bathroom cupboards, are we really doing anything other than stressing ourselves out so much that we break out anyway?! Is it worth all the effort? I, like most women, enjoy feeling attractive and pursue feeling that way. From makeup to lotion (with SPF!) to spending time doing the hair you spend money on to ripping out the hair you don't want... "Growing up" has sure rolled in with a lot of extra requirements! I guess the goal should be to feel good about how you look, and focus on looking good for yourself. I think that the attention from others when your confidence makes you glow will be the icing on the cake!

The joy of life is made up of obscure and seemingly mundane victories that gives us our own small satisfactions

Wednesday, May 14, 2008
12 days since my last post! Apparently I've been busy! Or lazy... Nothing extraordinarily interesting to report, just work and school as usual except for one thing. That thing is an event that I'm definitely excited for hosted by the salon where I work. It's called Cuts for Mutts and it's on June 8th. The stylists will be cutting hair and the proceeds will go to an organization in the area called Precious Pets Adoption League. I've been working with two women there named Gina and Shawn who are truly amazing people with huge hearts. Their hard work and passion for what they do is inspiring. Speaking of that, I should really write them a thank you note when all this is over! Yeah, I know they're getting a donation, but I think it's nice to know you're appreciated too. So planning for that is keeping me busy but things are falling together really smoothly and I think it will be a success!

Otherwise, I'm enjoying life as an independent woman trying to make the most of everything! Meanwhile, I can't wait for my May 31st plans to go see Sex and the City: The Movie with Lauryn complete with pre-movie cosmos and a post-movie visit to Fuse! Yeah, I know it's two weeks away still but I'm really learning to value close female friendships and that show (and hopefully movie) definitely captured those relationships.

Oh yeah, quote by Billy Joel. Oh, Piano Man.

Finally 21, and legally able to do everything I've been doing since 15

Friday, May 2, 2008
Well, not really. That quote was by an anonymous person and was the only 21st birthday quote I could find. What a great couple of days! I'm so lucky to have wonderful friends to share my birthday with and loved all the fun and fancy drinks I got to try. And yesterday was the first day I got to go to a 21 and up bar so that was fun too! I'm finally part of the club! It's great to grow up and try new things and have a good time but still be young enough to be carefree and not too worried about the consequences of every action. Certainly a unique time in life that sometimes is less than ideal but definitely has its benefits!

I just need somewhere to dump all my negativity

Friday, April 25, 2008
Quote by Van Morrison.

I try not to have a negative attitude but sometimes I just have to have a complain-y rant. So here I go:

I apparently need to avoid spending time by myself watching sappy love movies on TV. Of course, nothing happens in reality the way it does in the movies, but it's somewhat depressing anyway. And they make me think about my current relationship state and that is a lot of fun... Long story short (although the only person who reads this blog already knows) I broke up with my boyfriend of three years about two months ago and I am feeling quite sorry for myself today. Of course, the rest of my life is going just fine so I'm inwardly yelling at myself about being one of "those girls" who falls apart when not in a relationship, although I know I'm not a complete mess, it's just one of those days. Also, I keep looking at the guys that are in my life to "evaluate" them in terms of a possible relationship which is silly because I know very well that I won't ever approach anyone since I've always felt that the only people worth trying to have a relationship with were the ones who pursued me first. And I'm no longer in a relationship with the only guy who ever really did that. Bah. So now I have myself fully back in a high school mindset feeling sort of miserable.

To further analyze all of this, I'm probably feeling this way because there is a lot of unknowns looming on the horizon. I only have a year left in college, no idea where I'll be working, no idea where I'll be living, no idea what a "real job" will actually be like, and no relationship. Really there is absolutely nothing stable in my life besides one or two close friends and my immediate family. I crave stability and knowing what's ahead of me! So on the eve of a HUGE life change, I kicked the only person out of my life who was there on a daily basis. Ironically, it was also because of huge life changes since I am about to have mine and he isn't even close to having his. This particular phase in life is not my favorite.

The secret of dealing successfully with a child is not to be its parent

Thursday, April 17, 2008
In spite of or maybe because of being a non-mother, I feel like I have some insight regarding raising children.

1) Make rules.
2) Don't compromise your rules.

Is it that hard? Really? Because dealing with kids whose parents don't do those things is challenging to say the least. I understand wanting the child to have the best of everything, but bending to his or her will at every turn doesn't seem to be the right way to go about doing that. Hopefully I follow my own advice when I become a mother!

Funny title by cartoonist Mell Lazarus.

He enjoys true leisure who has time to improve his soul's estate

Tuesday, April 15, 2008
My monster paper is finally done! I feel like I can finally relax. I only have a little bit more to do in terms of school and exams and then I can relax for a few weeks. Yay! But of course, as soon as I have time to relax, I have a to-do list a mile long full of things that I've been putting off. At least there are lots of fun things on it!

As a whole, life is going really well. I think this beautiful Michigan spring is putting me in a much better mood. Finally! It was a long time coming but now that it's here I'm loving it! Being a little more relaxed helps too.

The title/quote is by Henry David Thoreau. I've only ever read one book by him (Walden Pond) and hated it. The quote is pretty good though.