Quote by Van Morrison.
I try not to have a negative attitude but sometimes I just have to have a complain-y rant. So here I go:
I apparently need to avoid spending time by myself watching sappy love movies on TV. Of course, nothing happens in reality the way it does in the movies, but it's somewhat depressing anyway. And they make me think about my current relationship state and that is a lot of fun... Long story short (although the only person who reads this blog already knows) I broke up with my boyfriend of three years about two months ago and I am feeling quite sorry for myself today. Of course, the rest of my life is going just fine so I'm inwardly yelling at myself about being one of "those girls" who falls apart when not in a relationship, although I know I'm not a complete mess, it's just one of those days. Also, I keep looking at the guys that are in my life to "evaluate" them in terms of a possible relationship which is silly because I know very well that I won't ever approach anyone since I've always felt that the only people worth trying to have a relationship with were the ones who pursued me first. And I'm no longer in a relationship with the only guy who ever really did that. Bah. So now I have myself fully back in a high school mindset feeling sort of miserable.
To further analyze all of this, I'm probably feeling this way because there is a lot of unknowns looming on the horizon. I only have a year left in college, no idea where I'll be working, no idea where I'll be living, no idea what a "real job" will actually be like, and no relationship. Really there is absolutely nothing stable in my life besides one or two close friends and my immediate family. I crave stability and knowing what's ahead of me! So on the eve of a HUGE life change, I kicked the only person out of my life who was there on a daily basis. Ironically, it was also because of huge life changes since I am about to have mine and he isn't even close to having his. This particular phase in life is not my favorite.
In spite of or maybe because of being a non-mother, I feel like I have some insight regarding raising children.
1) Make rules.
2) Don't compromise your rules.
Is it that hard? Really? Because dealing with kids whose parents don't do those things is challenging to say the least. I understand wanting the child to have the best of everything, but bending to his or her will at every turn doesn't seem to be the right way to go about doing that. Hopefully I follow my own advice when I become a mother!
Funny title by cartoonist Mell Lazarus.
1) Make rules.
2) Don't compromise your rules.
Is it that hard? Really? Because dealing with kids whose parents don't do those things is challenging to say the least. I understand wanting the child to have the best of everything, but bending to his or her will at every turn doesn't seem to be the right way to go about doing that. Hopefully I follow my own advice when I become a mother!
Funny title by cartoonist Mell Lazarus.
My monster paper is finally done! I feel like I can finally relax. I only have a little bit more to do in terms of school and exams and then I can relax for a few weeks. Yay! But of course, as soon as I have time to relax, I have a to-do list a mile long full of things that I've been putting off. At least there are lots of fun things on it!
As a whole, life is going really well. I think this beautiful Michigan spring is putting me in a much better mood. Finally! It was a long time coming but now that it's here I'm loving it! Being a little more relaxed helps too.
The title/quote is by Henry David Thoreau. I've only ever read one book by him (Walden Pond) and hated it. The quote is pretty good though.
As a whole, life is going really well. I think this beautiful Michigan spring is putting me in a much better mood. Finally! It was a long time coming but now that it's here I'm loving it! Being a little more relaxed helps too.
The title/quote is by Henry David Thoreau. I've only ever read one book by him (Walden Pond) and hated it. The quote is pretty good though.
Wise old Benjamin Franklin. The theme of this post, written a mere 10 days after I wrote my previous post, is about procrastination. Or rather, the fact that I feel like I am procrastinating when I'm really not. Or maybe I am... The point is, the end of the semester is right around the corner and I feel unprepared and rushed, even though I know I will get everything done. My list of things to do during my summer "break" continues to grow and the sheer level of activity is crushing. Bah. Also, the bill for my upcoming classes is astronomical to the point that I'm considering taking only one class at the university and the other one at the community college, which is turning into a huge pain for two reasons. 1) I can't register for the community college class online and 2) Their "online" services stop working at 11:45 pm and don't start up again until 7:00 am. Clearly because no one would want to use said services at night. I thought the point of the internet was that it's available 24/7. I just can't wait until my life slows down enough for me to breathe.
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