And homeless near a thousand homes I stood, and near a thousand tables pined and wanted food

Quote by William Wordsworth.

I'm not exactly "homeless," but I sure feel as close to it as I would ever want to! The whole situation is that I was invited into a pretty generous but also mutually beneficial situation that involved me renting/house sitting for a coworker. I paid $600 per month, no utilities except cable and internet, and in exchange I took care of the house and some of the yard work. Unfortunately, the owners of the house and their 7-year-old came home for a "visit" that is actually permanent because there is another baby on the way. So a seven-week visit (which seemed ridiculously long to me anyway) turns into permanent and now I have to find a new place to live. They said I could stay as long as I wanted (even until I graduate in May), but that seemed like a really long time to stay in a home with another family. I was fine with finding a place before school started and didn't feel like I was in a huge hurry until today, when I found out that I will be paying exactly the same amount of rent as I was when I was here all by myself! I don't love using swear words in my blog, but I think this is bullshit. I'm so annoyed/stressed that all of these little facts are leaking out drop by drop that I want to scream. So my "casual" move-out-in-two-months feeling has now changed to a hectic find-a-place-as-soon-as-possible feeling. My parents threw around the idea of investing in a condo that I could live in but at this point I'm so stressed out with everything that I just want to find a cute apartment with a one-year lease and curl up in a ball inside it. I want to feel like I have some degree of control over my life!